2010 - Year roundup

January 2010
Eleven months for my exam, and then two months till the results come. Two months, that’s sixty days of absolute unrestricted freedom. Now, that’ll be the time of my life. I’m going to forget all this work, studies, classes, tension and reflect back on the past few years, and just do everything my mind feels. I haven’t had much rest, or time to sit back and relax with my mind at ease, ever since I joined for my course, i.e, ever since my school days were over. I’ll put my whole mind to the exams right now, with absolutely no distractions, and make up for it during the two months. Yes, what glorious two months they’ll be! I just can’t wait!

April 2010
God, it’s getting shittier by the day. The portions seem never ending, and so do the dreadful stories associated with how tough the exams are, and how they keep getting tougher every time. Its been three months of studying, and godknowswhere I stand. Anyway, there are the two months after exams. If only there was a time traveller. Travel, yes, that’ll be something I should do after the exams. Just pack my bags, switch off my mobile, and zoom! Two weeks, that’s fourteen days out of the two months for travel. Random places, random people. It’s going to be surreal..! And there are still so much more for me to catch up on! Books that I’ve kept pending for reading, movies, hmm maybe I’ll learn something new too, lets see, some musical instrument. Oh I forgot. I’ve got to hit the gym. No six pack, no big dreams, lets see if anything good can be done with my body, at least to reduce the bulging belly! And I’ve got to update my long-ignored blog.

July 2010
Now life’s getting better. Yes, there is studies, and it’s getting heavier by the day, but nothing can dampen my mood now. The whole world seems to be with me, the chirping birds, the soothing wind, the lovely songs on TV, what, even my stupid mobile hasn’t troubled me for some time. Nothing can go wrong! Now, if only the exams were over!

October 2010
Everything’s strange. I’m happy, yet sad. I’m tensed, yet not tensed. What’s happening to me! Why am i feeling quirky! This isn’t going like how I wanted it to be. Maybe I’m just going through the exam tension phase. Maybe that’s gotten into my head so much that I can’t think straight. Yes, has to be that. Just wait for the exams to get over, and it’ll be alright. Oh yes, I have the two months with me. Strange, been some time since I even thought about the two months. Hmmm.

January 2011
It’s the second of the two months, and it’s about less than ten days when the two months time would be over. Now that I look back upon it, it’s gone not at all like how I’d planned it to go. God, 2010 was some year. It gave me fun, joy, sadness, and most of all, it gave me hopes. Only to break it at the end. What a roller-coaster of a year that was! I had promised myself of no distractions till the exams got over, and I wonder if I’ve kept the promise. If only I had, maybe I wouldn’t actually be feeling how I am right now. The exams weren’t great, and the two months haven’t been great either. I’ve done nearly nothing that I had planned to do. The travel plans were abandoned, I’ve not managed to read any book recently, there are no blog posts, and I still haven’t joined the gym.

Guess it takes more than two months to repair a broken heart.

-SRINIVAS